today she
did not
get engaged,
get pregnant,
or get dyed
today she
did not
get high,
get dead,
or get kai thx byed
but she
did fall
into Fool’s Well:
minor slip-up,
a backslide
beg, beg,
the corner
prophet cried
once a beggar,
always a beggar!
she tried to hold
fast but the tide
hauled strong
no lassie barked
no dark savior by
her side
just a little blood
(a smear) she
clawed her own
way up and out
chide, chide
but the quiet
voice arrived
deride the pied piper,
his slit-eyed
harlequin promises
he lied
she clicked yes,
but clucked no.
pride?
hail, or hide?
click, cluck
away from this
she sighed
still asking:
how great is this
greatest divide?
compassion pleads
to stay home
as practice for
a charred gut,
flayed wide
and—ah!
the damned
old prophet,
finally, defied!
today, denied!
she gave the
new silence
a chance
to decide
she gave the
new silence
a chance
to decide
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“she gave the new silence a chance to decide”. God Jen, I’m supposed to be frosting a cake and instead I can only sit here blinded by my tears, sadness hanging like fog. I’ve gotten pretty good at stuffing it, but your last two posts unleashed the torrents. I’m always here, reading. Thank you.
stunning … forgot to breathe
you are sooo good, so very very good
came back for the fourth time in several hours … haunted in the best possible way
One day at a time – and each day he’s denied makes one more day of new chances to decide, right?
Beautiful Jenn.
I am glad she gave that new silence a chance.
i’m sure my reaction to this is inappropriately loud and quite possibly altogether inappropriate, but i want to yell out:
BOOOOOOO YAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
xoxoxol
this is nice. reminds me a bit of Khalil Gibran if he kicked more ass
I want to say something deep and poignant in response to this, but instead I’ll be true to my shallow self and say – hooray for bloggers pressing out content on Superbowl Sunday!
I have been there. I’m sorry. Now, we’re here for you in a way that I hope helps some.
Incredibly moving. Now curious as to how the “new silence” decided.
God you are good