Lovies.
Brain not working as well as I’d hoped with the newest med addition.
Couldn’t do an editing job. Tore my hair out. Holes in brain. Had to return the job.
Afterwards, in the empty house, I lay on Sophie’s bedroom floor staring at her overhead light, for a long, long time.
I keep seeing the catchphrase “epic fail” these days, and that’s sort of the nasty feeling I’ve got in the pit of my belly.
Going to put the computer away for a week or so.
Going to find some cheap sun and play with the girls and hang out with Mom.
Going to see my oldest bestest friend, who’s got it rough too.
Going to redefine love. Don’t know that it will ever feel the same again. Don’t know that it could.
Going to lower all expectations like a limbo stick handled by the drunk.
Going to keep trying to figure out how I can be useful in this world. How to support my family, and myself, in a different way.
Gotta come up with a new line of work—zero multitasking—and a new line of thinking, with the brain I have now, not the brain I used to have.
Thanks eternally for all of your continued support. You mean the world to me.
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love.
Take care! Enjoy the sun and the company!!
Hope you have a peaceful, lovely week.
Love to you and your family.
A million virtual hugs are headed your way. Catch one when you need it. We’ll catch you when you get back.
You are useful in this world for being you. Don’t expect more. Just BE. You are an awesome mother, daughter, friend, person. Don’t ask for more; so few have given as much as you have. Even if you never do anything else in this life, you have contributed much. Look at all the people you have touched with your writing, your smiles, your love. I love you too, and that is enough. “To love and be loved is the greatest gift of all.”
Go lay on your back in the grass and look at cloud patterns. Smell the air, listen to the flowers in the breeze. Enjoy! Please.
xo
We’ll be here when you return. Have a wonderful week.
love you.
“Going to lower all expectations like a limbo stick handled by the drunk.” This says it so well. I feel like that, myself, these days, what with watching my child struggle with an undiagnosed mental illness. Peace to you, my dear.
Z and I will be thinking about all of you every day. Enjoy the shore. xoxo
You are already useful in the world, more than you know.
Have a good break!
I will be thinking of you and hoping for you and praying for you and yours.
Sending love.
Peace and love to you, Jenn.
I so hope you find what you are looking for and need during your hiatus.
xoxo
All my love is now
A cosmic hug, just for you.
(I’m praying for you.)
I’m going to miss your writing while you take this break, but I have a feeling it’s much needed. You know yourself and your limits. Come back to us safely and carefully.
love to you. crossing my fingers for lots of sunshine in your week.
Oh, good grief. I just now got your post title. There are a few holes in MY brain, I think!
take care. we’ll be here when you return.
Can’t add much to the wise words your friends have written above. It’s great that you are taking a break; although I will miss your thoughts here. WIshing you a sunny week of calm.
xoxo…get some rest and have fun in the sand…
Enjoy, relax, have fun, wear sunscreen.
Love and prayers, Jenn. Have a great vacation.
Enjoy the sun and your beloved family and I will look forward to your next post.
will be thinking of you
xo xo
{{{{hugs}}}}}
enjoy the sun
Jenn
Dear one
You know right? You know we love you and will be here when you return.
New meds are a bitch.
Sun, childrens laughing, holding Maters hand…. these things ARE what you need….go get them!
With respect for your knowledge of self….
Rooooolaloo
Many hugs!
Peace. And joy. And love. Descend on you and soak deeply in.
Jenn – I don’t know you and yet feel a strong connection to you. I really hope you have a healing and recuperative break. As others have said, you are useful already. You are beautiful and smart and GOOD. Take care of yourself and your girls.
Peace,
Nicole
Self-care = very good.
Not to minimize your journey, but lowering expectations can be quite liberating – not bad, just different. You are more valuable than you know.
Best wishes, thoughts, and prayers on your behalf. Peace to you this week and always.
Will be here when you’re ready to return. Have a relaxing and refreshing time “away”.
I’m sending you lots of love.
(And if you and the Mater [and the girls if the situation is such] ever find yourselves wanting to go for a peaceful drive and have a delightful cup of tea, or coffee or what-have-you, feel free to mosey on down route 8 to Becket and give me a buzz. I’m here with plenty of peaceful trees, fresh blueberries, and a river to enjoy.)
If you need anything…
Is Becket Kate our former Pittsfield Kate?! Your offer sounds delightful and delicious.
We are back – it was an amazing week! I’ll let Jenn tell her own story and I’ll blog about the experience at my own site … soon.
I think I’m feeling the luvvvvv from all of you as well. Thanks so much for your support of our family.
Hope you found some peace in the unplugged world.
Thinking about you and missing your words! xo
It’s been a while since the last time I checked in on my favorite blog (yours is the only one I keep up with)… Judging by your post titles I’ve missed out on a lot, but I can read and get an update while you take a break.
The good news is WHY I was gone for so long –NOT because your posts got boring– but because I started having fun and things started falling into place again. I stopped thinking about myself as the single mother-of-one trying to keep it together after the love of her life decided she wasnt the love of his life. I got back to me. And then I met someone. And then there was more work, and a little bit more money. And true, I’m no polar bear (you beat me at getting it tough), BUT I’m living proof that things change– and so is britney for that matter.
Take as many breaks as you need, get yourself a new job if you have to, but please dont lose that skinhugging black kit. Or your writing. You’re great.
I hope that you get some of that amazing love and good energy that you put out there into the world through your blog, back, tenfold, in a way that somehow helps you get through this.
Love,
a stranger who is always rooting for you
have an awesome holiday and come back refreshed and renewed!!!
I hear you. Enjoy the sun… Good luck with the meds and the brain, I am also adapting to meds, brain, new living arrangements, new job, changes in friendships, etc. Wish me luck with your face in the sun, my Bear!
Take care,
me