You have lost patience with all the ridiculous words. Depression. Sadness. Melancholy. Mental illness. Temperament. Genetics. Dysthymia. Medication. Sleep hygiene. Mood hygiene. Mood disorder. Complicated grief. Reactivity. Not one conveys the tearing pain from that ugly meat hook imbedded deeply, just below your sternum. The curved, cold metal suspends you matter-of-factly above the ground, far [...]
My round ass drops hard into the driver seat, surprising my crackling knees. Uh. Right. Not my car, which I chose for its high-booty ways, after my green Sentra gave up the ghost. No, I am behind the wheel of a gold Toyota Corolla, a 1999, according to the tag on the key chain, the [...]
Recipe for perspective: One Cessna flight Two daughters Familiar landscape Unfamiliar view Firstborn as co-pilot Secondborn holding my hand in the backseat Love waiting below Or so it says
I find I don’t want to talk to you. You there—for instance—you leaning up against the car, you with your obscene smear of eyelashes and your bucket hat, you with all the answers. It’s nothing personal. I don’t want to talk much, right now, to the ones I know well. I don’t know you at [...]
I could climb to the top of Mount Greylock and holler I know what I want, I want this, I want to begin again But it’s muddy and gray here. The few who brave this season of mud and muck in their sensible Keens and sturdy Merrells could not care less what the yelping, impassioned, [...]